Diet

Im going on a diet. I dont like the way i look.

Im still cutting.

Just tonight

"Here we are and you’re too drunk to hear a word I say. Start the car and take me home. Just tonight I will stay And we’ll throw it all away When the light hits your eyes It’s telling me I’m right. And if I, I am through Then it’s all because of you Just tonight"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yyU_EtUczNwThis is my song to my dad, because hes a drunk.. and at the end it says "Just tonight i will see that its all because of me."
Because when it comes down to it... if i had a daughter like me, id drink all the time too.

I do not want to stop cutting.

Home fucking home

Im home from my friends & im bored as hell.
I havent cut today, and its bugging the shit out of me. I smoked a J with Tyler earlier and that was cool I guess, even though i hate pot. Im going to try to start working out more.. :)
Anyways, im going to cut in a few... because im so fucking pissed at everything.
im off.

playlist.

DAY 2.

Im staying at my friends house again tonight. I love it here, the only thing is that i cant cut here. So im withdrawing like a mother fuck. :/

First day on this blog thing.

I relapsed in mid december and havent stopped since. God damn. Why did i have to do that, pick up the mother fucking blade AGAIN? it had been almost a year, but whatever. Im not stopping and NO ONE can make me. Steven fucks up everything, why do i have to care about him? 

Oh well, im ending this blog. because im not talking to anyone but myself anyways.

Just remember guys, shes not bleeding on the bathroom floor for attentinon